With all of the tragedy that has occurred this month in our country and around the world I have found myself feeling so grateful for my little family. That isn't to say there haven't been times this past month that I have wanted to rip my hair out during those moments where I am holding a screaming infant and am dealing with an obstinate 2-year-old who is yelling, destroying something, or is ALSO crying. But for the most part I am just so grateful. I have two beautiful healthy children and an amazing husband who bring me more joy than I ever imagined I could experience in this life. I love my crazy life.
Penny joined our family just over a month ago now! Nathan has had a bit of a hard time adjusting, which is expected for a two year old who has been dethroned.
His favorite pastimes in the past few weeks (most of which happen when I am nursing or putting Penny to sleep) include:
-taking all of my mom's books out of the bookshelf and scattering them all over the living room
-breaking a huge industrial-sized fan
-getting into mommy's makeup (grrr)
-meticulously removing all of the wipes from the container one by one so it is impossible to put them back
-being generally angry at the world
For the first couple of weeks he really pushed me away. When I would try and hug and kiss him during the few moments I had free hands he would push me and tell me no. Once when Cameron was reading him his bedtime stories and I came in to say goodnight he pointed to the door and told me to "go!" I almost cried. It isn't that a 2-year-old really hurt my feelings, it was more that I felt guilty that he is feeling abandoned by his mama. He is so young still, and I still view him as my baby, even though he isn't THE baby anymore.
As of late he has been enjoying making everything into "chase." I know I should just play along, but when Penny is in the swing screaming to be picked up and I am trying to change his poopy diaper and he makes me chase him around the house? Mommy turns into somewhat of a Witchy McWitcherson. This morning I chased him around for 10 minutes trying to get him to put clothes on so we could get to an appointment. He wouldn't listen so, I gathered my things, put Penny in her carseat, and said goodbye. I could hear him start to cry when I closed the door and immediately felt a little guilty, so I put my stuff in the car and came back and asked him if he was ready to put his shirt on. He smiled and said, "yep!" and let me put his shirt on. That little stinker. I can never stay mad at him though because he is so full of life and love and energy. After all, it wasn't HIS idea to bring a boring old baby into the family! He was just fine being our #1 and only.
That being said he hasn't once been unkind or tried to harm Penny in any way. He will often come up to us and ask if he can "hold it." We're still working on him telling us when he is done instead of just trying to shove her off when he's done holding her. Haha.
The other day I was washing dishes and Penny was in her swing and started to fuss. I finished rinsing and came into the living room and Nathan had Penny half way out of her swing trying to pick her up. He informed me as I walked up to save Penny that she was crying. Yes, son, I know.
|Just a couple of days after returning from the hospital-I love seeing these two squishies together|
|Penny love loves her bathtime-she gets so relaxed and peaceful|
Haha. This was her one week birthday where I was trying to document her cuteness and EVERY time I put her down she screamed. I felt like one of those Pinterest fails...it needs the words "nailed it" to be written across the bottom.
Here are my three favorite people, chillin out max and relaxin' all cool:
|After a family walk-Penny was out!|
|He loves her-sometimes ;)|
Grandad is a comfy place to nap! Every time he holds her while she sleeps she sleeps longer and better than any other person! Like my sister Tara said, "babies are dad's jam."
And here are some pictures I took of her on her one month birthday! She woke up the morning before with a horribly goopy eye and has terrible baby acne, but I think she is just the most gorgeous thing on the planet.
And, to keep things real, this is how she looked most of the time we were taking pictures:
-Penny is the fastest nurser in the west. She nurses for about 15 minutes total when she nurses on both sides, which I still haven't gotten used to, When Nathan was her age he was a 45 minute MINIMUM kind of guy. It is actually really convenient for me!
-Has a sensitive tummy and mommy hasn't had chocolate or dairy for a month. Some day she will understand the sacrifices I make (NO CHOCOLATE!?)
-Penny wakes up often at night-usually every two hours from midnight-6:00 am, but only nurses on one side and for 5-10 minutes and goes right back to sleep. So even though I would love it if she woke up less often, it is doable. So, basically I am tired, but not a zombie.
-Penny sleeps like a champ in her bassinet at night but hates sleeping in it during the day, so I spend lots of time snuggling my girl during daytime naps. I am trying to really just enjoy it and not sit and think about about what I "should" be doing instead. This infant stage goes by so quickly and I don't want to wish it away.
-Penny is currently a super mama's girl and cries when anyone else holds her. I love and hate it.
-Penny started smiling regularly right around her 1 month birthday. Her smiles just fill me with such warmth and joy. It is the best.
-She is already finding her voice and has the cutest little feminine coos. It is the cutest.
We are so grateful for this sweet spirit who has joined our family! She changes every day and it has been so fun to watch her grow. We are excited for her blessing next month!